Renewal
We’re all undeniably, beautifully human, which means our journey to Allah is constant. Even the best of the best of us have moments where they fall and forget, where their faith isn’t high and they must find it once more. This is to getting back up, each time faith firmer.
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I’ve tasted your sweetness in a time before
Not only once, but many times more
When the remembrance of my Lord would slip of my tongue like it was second nature
When it felt like my entire being and existence was created in perfect stature
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But it isn’t always like that.
I’ll let you in on a secret —
there are some days where my heart simply won’t budge
Promise me you won’t judge?
Because to tell you the honest truth,
On those days, I struggle
I struggle to find a longing to pray
Instead I wish only to sleep in all day
I lose fluency in the language of gratitude
I forget the blessings that my Lord has given to me in endless multitudes
I become disillusioned and unfazed
as life continues to press play,
it all feels like one blurry haze
I forget Allah, I forget myself.
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But without Him, my heart will always be amiss
My subconscious tattered and torn
I suddenly feel starved of true bliss
And is is then I know,
I must be reborn.
When my heart aches for it had missed
When in determination, it places Shaytan in its blacklist
Seek solace in your Lord, my soul insists
And it is then I know,
the time for rebirth is in the midst.
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When I rise after I have fallen
When I call out to my Lord in desperation
As if no one in the world exists but He,
That is when all doubts and weaknesses flee
I rise from the shadows I have met several a time
But each time I bid them farewell,
I emerge brighter, wiser and stronger.
And the time apart before I meet them once more, is longer
How bittersweet are the shadows?
It is them who are responsible for my demise
Yet to them, I owe my thanks
For they have taught me to fight
Without their darkness, I would not have seen the light.
